Stuff I am thinking about...

• My grandmother has been diagnosed with congestive heart failure. I have no idea how to process this. I don't do well with sickness or hospitals. I know both of those things lead to death. And honestly I have lost two many people in the short 28 years I call life.
• I am not asking for heart felt comments or words of wisdom. I am trying to wrap my head around what this diagnosis means to her and my family.
• I am trying to soak up as much family time I can.
• I am exhausted all the time.
• I want answers about why her and why now.