Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Earning my cape.

Today was one of those days that just didn't go quite right. I put too many things on my plate. I had too high of expectations for myself. And I am running on too little sleep. As my work day came to an end I was feeling like a failure, beating myself up over unkind words and jobs left undone.  I drove home chiding myself for poor time management, thank you notes still unwritten, and phone calls unreturned. I walked in the door to a fussy baby who I can't sleep train. Laundry that still hasn't been washed. And floors that have yet to be swept. And there are also the untouched running shoes that indicate my current lack half-marathon training.
I felt like a big fat failure.

I am trying to be SuperMom, SuperWife, and SuperTeacher. I am piling on the responsibilities and tasks thinking that I am Superman. I am trying to earn my Super cape through tasks and to-do lists. Making one more promise, taking one one more project that I know I can't handle.  

Does it really matter if I didn't send that last email? Will the world end if I don't make a phone call? Is a two week late thank-you note going to cause a major catastrophe? Will cereal for dinner, one week of poor running totals, or dustballs in corners change the outcome of society. 

The answer is a resounding no. 

So I am throwing away my to-do list. I am halting my quest for a cape. I am going to enjoy my baby, who will sleep someday (we hope!). And I am going to tell the nay-sayers, negativists, and that little voice in my head to shove it.


  1. Good for you. I'm one wine glass down and about to refill...and starting to feel better. It's definitely been an overwhelming start to the school year (and I don't have a baby to come home to).

  2. today officially started my half training for the st. auggie one in november... you're totally on schedule!