My Calling

Today was one of those high pressure, high stakes, long meeting kind of days. As a family we did not sleep well last night and I left for work already tired. If you were to ask me how my work day was I would tell you it was intense, busy, tiring. I have been using those same adjectives for months now.

If you know me well enough for me to really tell you about my day, I would tell you I am feeling overwhelmed, confused, and disheartened. I might say I am losing my passion and that I am unsure if the classroom is my calling. I might say that I am praying for wisdom to see if this is where I am meant to be right now. If you were with me on my drive home tonight you would hear me pray out loud for peace and guidance.

I love how God answers prayer. Tonight when I opened my google reader a post from Emily was sitting at the top. God spoke to me through Emily tonight. You see, no matter what my current 9-5 job is, my calling has not changed. As a Christian I am meant to LOVE Jesus and SERVE others.

These past few months I have not been following my calling. I have been loving my daughter, my husband, my family, and at times my job, but I haven't been putting Christ first. I have been serving my friends, co-workers, and loved ones, but I have not been loving or serving my neighbors. I've been hiding my light under a bushel called "Marzano" and "I have a new baby" and it's about time I start letting it shine.

So in conclusion blog world, If you see me snarling, gossiping, rolling my eyes, and taking the roll of poor me Debbie Downer, feel free to call me out. Tell me I need a little more Jesus and a little less of myself. I promise I will thank you for it.